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Make a sound while being
3:48 AM, Wednesday, December 31, 2008
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Make a sound while being the whole, head droop, go down too, he mother is frighten by me. A gang of disorderly rabbles. Hold!
Very ugly too when considering, has not seen women for several lifetime, it is a woman net friend that fights with several little young and inexperienced whelps. Where to put to spread my face out! Blame the disturbing of this woman too, see the net friend sees the net friend, see two bands together. I oneself pieces of one, another a gang of people first band. She thought she was that Thatcher had this and met visiting special envoy! The eyes are having a look two bands of persons want to start working, she does not put even a wind. Is she glad that that posture must stab two very much? This does not take us to open and rinse!
Damn it water of beauty's misfortune.
Too. In " passion in E night " The woman having a chat in the chatroom, where are several good goods? Except money and bed, they love nothing.
Not bad, two these whom I have.
Several brothers are not disappointing either. See, look like me to be old than you too, I ask big, call oneself of old brother. The old brother drink two more today, how much is a little unfair to on speech. How magnanimous every brother is! Girl this, I affirm, say what can let, sell, do what have piece first come, first served, either? In this way, you listen to old brother's sentence. How many are you altogether? Four. A person a Miss, I calculate the tip. China? Not at all, choose by oneself! --Boss! Boss! Call all young ladies out for me!
Settle! Can't balance by me nothingly.
It is that Qian could not balance to be nothing.
The paradise is guilty ' 24)
Give the nose face, can not pretend to be courteous either? It spends 200 great yuan again to hurt me. Begin, invite net friend love of one night while being a little bigger, let Miss, several still study " ancient puzzled son " on the others' film so Gouger moral integrity,slices of knives getting the more other in the waist, dare cut who really why. Develop in this way, is it good that will there be one in the future? I look like them to still watch " third-grade film " that Miss Hong Kong performed in the video drawing room furtively when being so great Woolen cloth.
It is I that understand, this world person who change he mother very fast!
"You enable pretty well, the treasure army! "
My grandaunt, you can open one's mouth at long last!
"Still not so bad, general. I tell you, Wang Shu, how either do I come out to mix now, hit killing all day long, how dull it is! "
"What are you? "
"I? Have not looked at? The vagrant, one tramp! It is easy to cough up to hear, it is a tramp, not a hooligan! " I talk about the handle is drawn to her skirt.
"Are you often with net friend's love of one night? " She nip I thigh one, " compartment this sound insulation bad, don't touch! "
I have taken hands out obediently. The woman's I have seen more that she is such a. I am every of everybody, although the education are not high, the length of surfing the Net is very high. Type, have I begin, surf the Net such as QQ, hold out like matter place " love online " too just . Saw suddenly later now, horseshit! What love online, where have any real emotion can long for, long for, come, long for, go, it goes to bed to be true still!
Usually loving the woman that the net chats has three kinds. One kind is that a pure type network is blind. Type and return so that two eyeballs stare at the keyboard slipping away in the round, must click to send QQ news with the mouse. Chat, wait for you ask who is she very name, how much it will be age, she oneself right away hold out totally. The such one is aptest to defraud of the emotion, whole two sentences of a solemn pledge of love can have her flicker the tears gurgle, but the most difficult to defraud of the human body. Once really do others because of carelessness, she must pester you and want you to shoulder the responsibility, force clavus to sue her mother for going accurately. Well, it is excessive to suitable for the purpose in the characters, it is not all right to come true. Anyway I am not interested. The second kind is to send the type in spring directly. Hear of you " The wealth looks " Possessing both, does not love you under two for three times on the net, a " husband " Ask where that piece kiss, go to bed it is three two that take off getting all clothes too, use the lowpriced interest of whole body and entice you. You if nothing experience that is over, deliver goods two times three times, she must scold your silver rifle stub, you will not know if see you later. Dealing with this kind of woman, I do in an expert way, eight for ten came as soon as called under now. Third, it is a stuffy disturbing type. It is recognized that the such one is very difficult, if judge that must get a scolding by mistake. You must put the place man patient enoughly, what chose her liking hearing had a chat catering to his tastes. Have a chat, come, have a chat, go whom she assume at the surface restrained to break you gap, wipe, produce ambiguous spark, another meet then getting crazy than the first one, whom she understand make love some changes to be more manily than to you see A on block! Such a woman generally receives some higher education, there are several drops of ink tingling in the stomach, quality is not low, there is ambience.
This in my chest belongs to the third kind now. My already not wicked white day and night bubble is two weeks. Can basically judge her feature is good, this is still really believed from her network name, I have accurate intuition, the experience for many years! I can be unwilling to let such good goods slip away from the eyelid, let others take the lead! Not having too big progress all the time soon, I worry about this. She says she likes literature. What chicken's thing do I hold literature? " whether daytime near the mountain the near, enter the Yellow River ocean current " ? "every which the beauties of everies turn round,Mars whether the Limas last the earth " ? Lu Xun or Nobel or Oscar? It is known where I go! It is a blessing I am clever. I have one pretty good writer brother, what die bird literature editor-in-chief of website. He has monographs in that website. Puff and blow C have for several times not puffing and blowing V, I become full of ideas for state policy or programs too at will! Haha!
This brothers of mine have not still really let me down. Just sent the sixth poem of the past, agreed to meet me there! See this suspender skirt that she wore, the netted silk socks of long tube, the chest is still opened so low, the stuffy disturbing type representatives with restrained, with lascivious heart typical surface! It is not I that fall through, must take down tonight!
The network name is so delicate and pretty to free from philistinism, in fact people are only like this!
The paradise is guilty ' 25)
Chapter 12 Another face (2) of the love
11:09 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter 12 Another face (2) of the love Eric is looking at me silently, send you to come back so late, will cause and misunderstand?
The little soldier is my boyfriend, as everyone knows.
I smile, thank you.
Eric draws back the door for me. The left hand takes away the paper scrap that I am stained with on the hair, have a rest early, more arduous recently, you are thin.
I move first, I dodge in a hurry, small soldier standing in but it is dark to knock.
How are you here? Did not go to work? My hurry and confusion without rhyme or reason.
What? May not I be here? Tone is ice-cold.
Small soldier is not that what you saw is such.
Do you worry and explain what it is? Do I have and talk about you?
I
Why not answer my telephone?
I I Have not heard. I take out the telephone, 9 have not been connected.
Little soldier, place that has a meal is noisy too, I have not heard, see the small soldier's sight ruthlessly, I am a little timid and timid. He is our boss, the company has a dinner party in the evening, he sends us to come back.
Send you to come back? Does it have you only alone on the car why to give to you back? Why get off here? What are you hiding from? Are you afraid what it is?
I need only you and believe me, it is not you that think as like that as what was hit.
What kind do I hit imagination? Small soldier roars towards me for the first time.
He catches my arms, walk to the family with vigorous strides, I trot all the way, arms ache very much, ache in the heart even more.
Entering the door, I am silly there, the fragmentary candle light in the room, there are my favourite dishes on the desk, there is lollipop. I have forgotten, it is our the first anniversary commemoration day in love today.
Small soldier walk out on me get sofa, sweep dish of desk to the ground like go mad. I begin to shed tears, shed tears ceaselessly, but can't explain.
Have slept on the sofa crying. Small soldier emit blood silk eyes of flame, little soldier tone unbelievably, hand like the little soldier pliers, do not hover in my dream.
Originally, was my gentle small soldier also having violent side at heart, my understanding like my imagination really to him? But I know, I love him, in any case.
At midnight, the little soldier embraces me on the bed. He holds me, I feel his tremble, I hear him say to me annoyedly, the ice is blue, I am sorry, I am sorry, you do not know how I love you, I am very afraid, are very afraid of losing you.
I put and make falling asleep, but the tears have flowed disappointingly.
The small soldier begins to be terribly suspicious to be swayed by considerations of gain or loss. He always woke up suddenly at midnight, embraced me tightly, the embrace letting people suffocate, say ceaselessly, the ice is blue, I love you, I love you.
The small soldier's music room is more difficult to do, he no longer goes to the bar to play too, accompany me after coming off duty every day, make the thing that I like eating, boil dense black coffee, smoke, make love in the fragrance of coffee. Our languages are fewer and fewer, I begin to often stare flankly, the small soldier looks at me with the innocent childish expression in one's eyes, the ice is blue, are you thinking what it is?
Thinking of nothing, I was staring flankly.
Why do I think you farther and farther from me?
How can. I am comforting the young soldier's head, the more he looks like a child without sense of safety more and more.
The ice is blue, let's get married.
I shake in mind. If several months ago, I will assent joyfully, but now, I have a few worried doubts, I begin to think that does not understand small soldier by oneself, just as his feeling, I also think him farther and farther from me, but I love him, this is enough, the one left is time.
Wait a moment again, Let's put aside it till after we are steady, OK?
The little soldier is looking at me, I found out the tear in his eyes unexpectedly.
The ice is blue, can't I give you a feeling of a steady family? I oneself, sense of duty to the family too too.
I have not spoken, perhaps, in the face of the marriage, people make reality unconsciously. I want to have a smooth family, have a steady lover.
Don't worry, I will be diligent.
Small soldier cut, go top of the head yellow to take place, short and black short crop, business wear, he change into for one staff member of securities broker company, in order to give to a stable family of my, he gives up one's own dream. The existence was given up and devoted in the love, perhaps such love has been already unequal.
I begin to learn to cook, boil black coffee, wait for the small soldier to go home. The small soldier's words are fewer and fewer, I think him unhappy.
We are originally persons swelling oneself, for giving up the orbit of one's own life each other, more and more tired, the more deviate from more and more, overbalance more and more.
Eric is not still too far to keep in touch near with me, keep an appropriate distance, have not oppressed the sense, is never far away from too, is observing every gesture of me. What man having a sure thing such a calm one is make.
Bai Wei says, the ice is blue, I think you and Eric should be heavenly couples, he can meet your small Vanity and pursuing to idealized life, no need the rice and fuel daily necessaries all day.
My white Wei is one. How many advantages he has given to you to act as the lobbist.
Oh, I may not necessarily be bribed, just think so so good as to offer to missing being really regrettable for my advantage, it's a great pity whom others courted is not I, it's a pity too you have been covered with lard in the eyes, know you how long does it play with with dissolute singer of you, the youth is bitter and short really.
Bai Wei, why do you change?
She smiles despising at me, only the little girl believes the love, do you say that the half-length animal is believable to down? You just do your love fond dream. It would be better, catch reality is famous to want, as early as possible, make money, want, as early as possible, fall in love, take as early as possible too early, it should be certainly better for a long time even more that sober.
Chapter 11 I am not your thistles and thorns (4)
11:09 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter 11 I am not your thistles and thorns (4) Who has promised you?
You!
No!
Have!
Do not have!
Have! Anyway you will act as the old woman of yellow face, oh.
I rush forward, have gripped the small soldier ruthlessly very much.
Very much, murder the husband! The small soldier cries overstating.
Flower those droop head still, many iron wire stretch out in rachis, support flower fade loud head.
I easy I? The small soldier puts on a long face, the others' florist shop has all come off duty, the good flower is sold out, it has been already rather complicated that can get these, fortunately my ice and snow is clever.
My Bo has gnawed one greatly on the face of the small ice, makes saliva of his whole face.
The small soldier takes me to see his friends, see people say happily, my wife, the ice is blue.
I getting red face kick he a kick, getting American you.
There is a beautiful girl calling A three in the little soldier's friend, have American and captivating voices. The small soldier often takes me to play card with them, they like playing with the shuttleless loom, is the game of that kind of gambling on TV of Hong Kong.
Whom I like little soldier at the gambling calm, he is embracing I nearby in left hand, the right hand looks through the card, very steady, even the card is very bad, can play with psychological tactics with the other side calmly, resolute and calm. I face upward face think he, will ask oneself whether how one man it will be this? He lets me play pendulum between the security.
Winning the card each time, he will suck on my face, can not be with great rejoicing, do not know the great sorrow either. Then, I can see a silk that that girl beautiful flashed on the face to lose.
The small soldier is one kind of such a persons, sometimes I think he looks like a child, but sometimes I do not think I understand him at all. He will take me home bearing strongly when being drunk, then vomit in a complete mess, insist on having a bath. He has a slight clean addiction, like me. Then not wake up in this world on the bed when pouring, can remember nothing the next day. I think his will is actually very strong.
The business of music room of the small soldier is lighter and lighter, sometimes they will go to the bar to sing, I am waiting at home, fall asleep until he has come back, has already been used to his even breath in one's ear. The usually small soldier has been already very late while coming back, I am curling up on the sofa, he will embrace me on the bed, kissing gently, then say, I am sorry.
Cover the small soldier's mouth, I know he begins to be annoyed as being unable to give me stable life.
He is unwilling to use my money, presenting some male chauvinism at heart of little soldier.
He is such a person, even if only have 1,000 yuan left in the pocket, if meet special day, he can buy a present to me with 600 yuan too, then take to play with me with 400 yuan.
Go to make money hard again in following life.
That period of time is poor, the most happy day since but me so far.
The small soldier can not write out the satisfactory song, begin to have the fidgets. It know I what comforts,it can only mourn in silence smoke or stop not for he pieces of eaching crazy to play games, diverting one's attention very absorbedly.
I will go to listen to him playing once in a while, it is very late very late, the small soldier drive the motor quickly, speed along on the wide unmanned road, I hold him tightly, I want to talk to him, I will at your side forever, I think, he can hear
Chapter 11 I am not your thistles and thorns (2)
11:08 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter 11 I am not your thistles and thorns (2) Small soldier touch kind a pair of grieved ones, yes, yes, I feel self-humiliation carefully, really, feel self-humiliation carefully.
Usually the small soldier will meet me and go home in the evening, corrupt outside once in a while, go to the market to buy vegetables together at more time, small soldier make, he piece to take person that particular about very, and I, unable to present a treasure really.
Unless in fact, take by the the one once, for pepper fried pork liverses sharp liking soldiers small,and does not say dish make delicious, hand of me more very painfully hot, fine fine jade hand whether I worth show off and treasure most all over, the small soldier loves and gets pen-hold grip my buttocks. From then on, I did not make the chance of the kitchen.
Oneself lazy after all in fact, even commission of having bowl has hung on to give to the light soldier, sometimes I think secretly, do not know the life that the little soldier's mother sees him like enslaving now will want to execute my capital punishment.
I have never known and cut the hot pepper that also want the skill, am afraid again the small soldier laughs at, that fellow always tries every possible means to laugh at me trying their best. Then often go to toilet once to wash and wash hands with the cold water, relieve it. Found by the small soldier at last.
He hold hand of me afford to exert all one's effort, outroar, can get, flaunt the superiority, ache, can puff and blow one either. Tone is very heavy, I almost fall down the tears.
The little soldier steeps my hands in the cold water, then take out an apple from the refrigerator, wipe the core of the apple for me ceaselessly, see me shedding the tears directly, turn round to run to buy cool BAIYAO (white drug) (sic) aerosol of Yunnan to gush out ceaselessly downstairs, busy with, breathe out one night, tone but fierce Palestinian Palestine. The small soldier is a person who is not good at expressing, he will be kind to you quietly, but feel ashamed when you find, cover up with a kind of very heavy tone. I watch little soldier, feel soft pain in the heart suddenly.
The small soldier does not know, my tears are not flowing for finger.
Always a kind of happiness will let you have one's face covered with tears.
The ice is blue, can't dote on you in this way later, you should learn to cook slowly too after getting married, busy with work talk endlessly in kitchen by the small soldier, I lie prone in bed writing to father.
My father:
I have fallen in love.
He calls the young soldier, height 182CM, weight is 70 kilograms, eats the meat in love, unmarried, the financial speciality graduated, doing the music now. I know you have not had good opinion to the person who has done music all the time, but the small soldier is different, he has his dream and pursues, is a very persistent person, if the serious attitude at time that you see him doing things, it is sure to admit him. The most important thing is, he is very kind to me, very good, after the grandmother passed away, nobody was so well to me again.
Dad, you should not be anxious, I know what oneself is doing, I feel very happy now, show between the lines, it is instant's to people that it is happy sometimes, but I believe we are sure to accompany interdependently forever, so, please must rest assured.
The small soldier is a very kindhearted person, he likes the little animal, likes children, I remember you have ever said, the benevolent person becomes a good companion, he cooks for me and eats every day, help me to wash the clothes, he is afraid water is cool, will freeze my hands. I often think, it is fair to have an innocent one, another a thing of yours of compensation that it is sure while snatching a thing of yours away. Dad, bless us.
See what an outstanding and enterprising young talent I blow out you.
Actually exactly.
The little soldier embraces me on the chair, eh, it seems to sink, how can I become the self-employed pig raiser.
That is because you set an example.
On the small soldier's body, you will always have a brand-new discovery.
He often has the styles of one hundred to let you feel pleasant surprise. Having period of time, the music is not well made, the small soldier's economy is short of more money, we seldom go out to go shopping to see the film, but I can receive pleasant surprise from him every day.
The carbon that I like eating by the street burns squids, the small soldier will buy one bunch specially after coming off duty every day, then two people strive, take, I arm leg he long, afraid of, breathe out, itch again, small soldier can be regarded as favourable climate and geographical position of gaining all, see him afford to chew squid each time, throat a burst of deflation right away of me, the small soldier likes seeing the appearance that I fly into a rage from shame while fighting for, usually I know once stopping taking action in the small army a disaster is imminent, not appearing for two seconds, my tears will flow up, after making the small soldier in a frantic rush, send the squid to the stomach tittering again by oneself. Later, the small soldier came back each time, I will outroar, paid the fish and did not kill, the posture of the old woman of pairs of rifles, the small soldier puts up two hands the top of the head well-behavedly, is still carrying a pitiful squid in the hand.
But one day, I take squid, find light soldier obedient very, as originally any, try every means, want, deceive, go to several, wipe out from here, or emerge the pitiful expression too. He carry, facing toward I, know rustle know what is the matter with, no matter how send voice that sip out I, think this squid flavour suddenly, nothing to vie for, wipe out fragrant originally. Depend on, enter light soldier stealthily, jump to he violent, he hold in the mouth in why it will be pieces of Xiao lollipop Xiong that I like originally, with relish, see me bring suddenly, the is jumped, Xiao Xiong's head fell into his mouth.
Roar, live up to its reputation as expected, eat carefully. The small soldier speaks holding the tune of the little ball.
Pig's head! I stare at round eyes, give to me!
Do not give!
Do you give? I jump with strength, jump to the small army and shoulder, it needs his neck to chuckle that both arms are tied tight.
The small soldier does not hand over as Xiao Xiong of the head obediently, does not forget to lick one. Really inhuman!
I sit on the bed, begin to suck perfectly contentedly.
The small soldier lies prone by the bed, is looking at me pitifully. Give one more, a small mouth.
Chapter nine Initial the Garden of Eden (5)
11:07 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter nine Initial the Garden of Eden (5) The small soldier says, we gave birth to specially for each other, God has specially made you for me.
I say, small soldier, I like you, like your health too. While saying this words, I think I looks like a woman hooligan, have not blushed, but so naturally. I think, I have reproduction to worship complex, I like human body of Dong.
The little soldier is my first man, I once hoped he was the last one too.
I say, small soldier, let us meet last and drowned disaster at the moment of flying into summit, in this way you will inlay it in my body forever, turn a fossil, let the descendant remember us forever, remember our love.
Excitement of another time of small soldier. Again and again, I induce oestrus in language, until begging for mercy by oneself lastly.
The little soldier is stroking my smooth health, you are very beautiful.
He is looking at me silently, tender feeling, I can understand, that kind of tender feeling is named the love.
The porridge has already attacked a place, our stomach begins to bang clucked clucked, it has only had a bowl left that the small army has not told me porridge, he is feeding me to eat up, has only drunk two mouthfuls of soup by oneself.
Small soldier such, everything humour I, urgent I, I believe, even if let him pay the life for me, he knows justice without returning to taking care of, is liked like this, do not really know whether it is happy or not?
Go to the toilet after standing up, find that there is a thin red silk on the pants. I drew back the quilt, but did not see natural falling red, suddenly became ice-cold in mind. I do not know how the small soldier will think, but I, overly take the initiative?
Look at sheets and stare flankly, the small soldier is coming up, from enclosing me behind, it seems not to take notice of, I can suddenly disappointed in oneself, why will I take notice of so? I hope to tell the small army, he is my first man, but, will he believe? The clever ice is blue, the ice that everything is learnt without a teacher is blue, the ice like the evil spirit is blue, will the small soldier believe?
I can not understand after repeated thinking, at last clear, that year of 13 years old, I dedicated the hymen to a stool.
Chapter ten Strange illusion
I find grievedly, oneself was one such people originally, it was still oneself that liked most, love the illusion of giving oneself and making, imagine oneself into a protagonist in the tragedy, then go to do one's utmost to be close to one's own illusion in life. Let, believe oneself, can love one forever, can put out the fire so as to the moth, can vigorous, can also with solemn and stirring, such life, perform, show others, perform and see oneself too.
Tall and erect to pat I while being light, ice blue, obedient child, he whether piece does not know how comfort people of people, and I, do not need any comfort.
The ice is blue, you are such an unhappy child, too sensitive and lacking sense of safety, how could make you happy.
I just feel lonely.
Lonely to come down in life, before running into you, I thought I will be so lonely all one's life soon.
But now, we are more lonely. I say, tall and erect, I am a little soldier of love like this, do you know? But why be so? The tears flow up again.
Kiss my eyes tall and erectly, is pacifying me by careful touch.
The men are all grown love by the sex, right? I look tall and erect definitely. The ice at this moment is blue already the calendar has smelted goblins.
Once someone told me, No, that was love not pure, don't believe Plato, Plato is touching in one night unable to stand too. Yes?
The tall and erect Adam's apple quivers.
I twine to tall and erect, until firm expression in one's eyes look at him most like the water snake.
I want you to love me once purely. The blue firmness of ice, nobody can support, and enter the despair of heart directly.
Enter that time in health such as I in him, I know on the heart, I was not pure in him, alternatively, he knows, in my heart, actually perhaps he does not think of as what was hit oneself it important. The man, the one that need is conquering, can only conquer the body while conquering the heart.
And that time, I suddenly felt strange, this was not health that I was familiar with, can conquer my body, there are small soldiers only.
Tall and erect embrace is soft, like the gentleman, he kisses my ears lightly, I simply go excessively, ears begin inflammation again, that script should not be my wound, I pluck the earrings, leave it to seal, resumes, like not hadding, however, feel carefully, a hard and hard knot stem is there, can't as ever after all, can't had as it, so ears, let alone the heart. The small soldier always forbids me to maltreat one's own body, he says, the ice is blue, you who are natural are the most beautiful.
All of a sudden I have lost the interest to the love, in tall and erect and gentle striking, very ice-cold in the heart. Everything just makes a show, including tall and erect, he minds one's own behavior very much, a performance not very absorbed. And I, another vindictiveness in the wave of the body, a kind of cruel happiness, my psychology has too much hatred.
Suddenly found, I was the ice of Scorpio was blue, unsuccessful, died for a righteous cause, not so available as the middle road.
I push tall and erect hands aside, light a cigarette again, in the smog curling upwards, I say, tall and erect, listen to me continuing telling a story. Perhaps I am just saying to oneself. I find grievedly, oneself was one such people originally, it was still oneself that liked most, love the illusion of giving oneself and making, imagine oneself into a protagonist in the tragedy, then go to do one's utmost to be close to one's own illusion in life. Let, believe oneself, can love one forever, can put out the fire so as to the moth, can vigorous, can also with solemn and stirring, such life, perform, show others, perform and see oneself too. Originally, I was only acting in a play, all were the props, including the love in the play, I but one-sided wish want lines of deep scar row among others' heart, originally.
Chapter nine Initial the Garden of Eden (3)
11:07 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter nine Initial the Garden of Eden (3) The small soldier has inserted a sparerib to Bei's Bei bowl, I almost fall down the tears.
No, come into the room.
Roar, young lady's temper is still full and great. The small soldier jeers at.
Bei Bei says, seems really angry.
Let her go angrily, it seems that nobody causes her, isn't it? Loud, speak to me on purpose.
At I fall door, bungle, go ruthlessly pillow to wall, itching to break go out the whole face proud little soldier.
Who I am, the vilain is angry that I don't achieve one's ambition for this.
It is limited that the ones that say people stand, the ice is blue and vulgar unavoidably too.
Volcano eruption in one warm a dusk very, put " iron tooth copper tooth discipline little haze " on TV, if I have iron teeth copper teeth, I believe the small soldier has already broken to pieces.
Have a meal, small soldier wash two apple, I Palestinian bar see he putting, getting Bei Bei on the mouth heavy, Bei Bei is still snuggling up to the small soldier sweetly and fatly, no my existence of consciousness at all, feel sad with regurgitation in a period of time. Envied, this envied originally.
Palestinian bar is counted on, how to say the a bit smaller one should give to me, but I overestimate one's own glamour, only see apples shake before my eyes, shake into mouth of the small ice.
All of a sudden the tears gush out, I outroar, small soldier, you drop dead. Turning round and going out of the door, I hear the sound that young ice chases out.
He catches me, I throw hands ruthlessly, turn round to run, does not want him to see the bottom of heart is down and out.
The small soldier catches my wrist tightly, can not get rid of, I am so ruthless as to grip very, upper blood rise directly to see the tooth tallying. All of a sudden come down softly.
You discussed you would talk about your love in your feeling, why will shame come, I? The tears come down in torrents and leave.
Small soldier one crowd into me chest, one day person who fasten dark kiss, I unbending to collapse with a loud crash. He has soft lips, is suffused with the breath of the vanilla, make me dizzy.
Have not spoken more anything, has not explained either, are just looking at me silently in little soldier, mourn in silence and strengthen, direct in the heart of hearts, I am a little dizzy, all these come too fast, the surprised serious offense is joyful, this one and his campaign, I end in failure, I am happy. But, where is Bei Bei? My conscience begins again to be uneasy.
Bei Bei exceeds the calm that I imagine, just says, I should know early that will be like this, I really over-evaluate your energy. I have one's heart filled with the doubt, but this has not hindered me from becoming the little soldier's girlfriend naturally, two people bicker and give a piece of bad advice everyday. Fight with people, what joy it is.
Bei Bei is said, the ice is blue, you needn't feel guilty, it is always only a friend that I follow the young soldier, he is not the type that I like. However, you upset me.
I smile, already been so happy as to hoodwinked by flatter.
Later, had not seen the small soldier go fishing again. I say, small soldier, it strikes an attitude to mingle with men of letters and pose as a lover of culture to see you, which has a small white face rust fishing rod of elbow of comrade fishing.
Little justice straight harsh words, comrade of soldier, say to tell the truth, I little soldier lifetime this angle been first fish only, not really because the small soldier's comrade's technology is very high, that fish is really too cumbersome.
Then get me to beat suddenly and violently.
What the small soldier studied is finance, it was the thing having nothing to do with the finance at all that was done. The big motor drive, swift as lightning, dye a tuft of golden yellow hair, pierce through the cowherd of the hole, there is not much money, but there is the best stereo, in the hollow room except the record is the music of the full room, he holds the sound of the music very loudly, a kind of feeling flooded by the sound. He listens to Mozart, listens to in the moustache, listens to eagle's beetle and black leopard BEYONG too, at that time, the small soldier's biggest interest is the music, except that and the friend make up the band, these persons who loves the music also inclined its all has established a music operating room, make and packaging, the music is the life of the little soldier.
The small soldier always inserts me on his big motor compulsorily, speed along on the residential district at mid-night, I stick the face on his back tightly, listen to his even breath. Realizing a kind of completely different life which breaks away from the normal practice.
Stimulate, everything is stimuli so.
The little soldier writes the pleasant song for me, then sing for me gently, the purely pure sound is in one's ear, can pain in the heart happily unexpectedly.
Bei Bei is said, the ice is blue, in fact you are improper, how much do you understand him? Your base is two people in the world.
The small soldier is a persistent and lonely person, I understand, I love, I am willing.
While coming off duty every day, the small soldier's motor will sound downstairs humming, I wind one go out the samely.
White Wei is said, my God, the strength of the love is very great, see that galley proof of having a radiant face of blue classmate of always dispirited ice, the work is like plane, then it is even faster than the rocket to dash to the tempo of the love, it is really that working love is missed neither.
I go back dish loudly, that that, both hands want, stress, it is getting hard for both hands to take. People have already gone straight downstairs.
White Wei is my colleague, very different girl, suck SEVEN STAR, does not drink with rubing the card of sugar, easy to wear the sexy clothes, write the characters sensationalizing. Thinking often dissociates, say a sentence of very philosophical words without rhyme or reason.
For example she curls upwards and stands rightly by the window, the close-fitting skirt is wrapped up in the body exquisitely and gracefully, holding cigarettes in the hand obliquly and obliquly, the fan suddenly vomited and appeared in the drizzly smog.
Time real TMD is a steelyard.
Such a woman is to poisoning and bewitching all living creature in this world.
And I, one speak insane heart little simple girl just. Neither drink coffee, nor speak the dirty word in front of the stranger, just go with Bei Bei a wild once of bar moustache evenly, that we theme of life, I write only beautiful characters, drink, freeze plain boiled water of the heart completely with enormous water cup, eat the red apple not peeled, wear the big jeans cotton quality T shirt, or wear the long skirt of cotton, the light wears the dirty plimsoll, is a very high horse hair forever, usually face it, sharp tooth favourable tooth, a non- desirable one I bite one suddenly, make white Wei smooth and slick so to keep own individual character even forever.
Chapter eight Gray past event (7)
11:06 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter eight Gray past event (7) On Pure Brightness of every year for the future, I will take three bunches of flowers to sweep a grave, one bunch is given to mother, one give grandmother, another bunch raise woman who I grew up for those.
We are all victims of the emotion, there is no right or wrong in this world.
I have no family, but I will get back to my city each vacation, go father to see me, because he display kind to reduce to into life imprisonment, I know this fine or bad to him? But to me, this have important meaning too, father in this world only relative I. He is much older, only support is me in life. Do you know why I like writing the long letter? For a long time, this is an only channel that I get in touch with father. I write, show him trivial thing broken to pieces to lock, I can see he tears read the letter, each time and smile.
Chapter nine Initial the Garden of Eden (1)
I love these young man, he at one's side sometimes piercingly cold sometimes expression in one's eyes of tender feeling, he is happy, and the happy the following depression unknown by the people, he has his faith and persistent. I stroke the young soldier's cheek. Think I pieces of person that do not love too much, heart of me hate, fill already once, but I am wrong, in the face of the small soldier, I suddenly had too much tenderness.
Hold me tall and erectly gently, is pacifying me, I smile, It's nothing, tall and erect, I have already been used to it.
Among slander, in mean jab, I used to it already, it is hard and ice-cold for heart to become.
Kissing me tall and erectly, he says, you let me love, you have born the weight that this age shouldn't bear too early. I am looking at the tall and erect eyelashes, it is long, the thin gloss has flashed, I say, tall and erect, do you know? I like your eyelashes, like the appearance that you smile. Just like the small soldier.
Tall and erect, I have not reminded you of the small soldier yet, yes?
Hold me tall and erectly, nod with a smile.
About the small soldier, let us talk about from where?
After graduation from university, Bei Bei and I have passed the life of cohabitting, what a happy day that is!, meagre salary and laugh that will never rest, magnificent young years.
At that time, we rent of one living room and one sitting room cabin jointly, hollow, we getting plentiful it bit by bit, we get up to fight for the toilet in the morning, run out of the room together, one is to the west to one in the east, cook together, sleep together, go to chase the bar then deceive the fool and check together, while just having, I will go to see behind alone people fish on the lakeside in the park. I am responsible for planning in gentle case in an advertising agency not big, the work is not very busy, need with ordinary working hours, in it is fine, will go to the meadow of the park to see the book gets sun either, then, come to like and see others fish, see the floating float on the surface of water at the behest of supernatural powers, see the thin and thin line of fish, see people's quiet expression, the happy or disappointed expression while drawing fish's pole, see the small fish meeting a sharp fate of those too. Sometimes I even think, I am a small fish, swim to his side disregarding own safety because of loving a man going angling, then, initiate and stay, even will weep. Yes, I suddenly became affectionate and sensitive at that time, heart was having deep tragic complex, thirst for a pure but not complete love.
Then, one day, one gets rid of the pole, the fishhook hooks my hair passing by on one's way even handedly, the owner of the fishing rod is a young soldier, very high stature, short hair is thin and capable. In my scream sound, the small soldier has shown evil and happy laugh.
I tear the hair, fly into a rage from shame, the small soldier is still laughing unprincipledly. I to tear, break or break, break fish line fish pole in at that time first response, it's a pity, the same I get it constant too, can only pull out and break one's own hair angrily.
Little soldier reflection of conscience finally, begin, help me solve fishhook hair that twine, I feel his breath, the breath of the green grass, has moved indistinctly in mind, have not disappeared completely yet while being angry. Then, I see young soldier's limpid eyes, can not hide the laugh of meeting the eye on every side, I suddenly began to begin to laugh heartily, can not really stand that kind of expression of trying to cover up a misdeed, only to make it more conspicuous of his.
Immediately, I put and did a stagger, stamped the small soldier ruthlessly.
Kay Hey Hey, sorry, has not stood firm, Ah, you have a look, how you put the foot here, ache? My a face with false the innocent.
Fight with me!
He is looking at me gnashing one's teeth, open one's mouth, I thought I would jump out some vicious words again, that is only heard fiercely, I call the young soldier.
Two soldiers meet, it is a loser to flare up, just as the past master in the kungfu novel has a contest, this boy but like this, I laugh wildly in the stomach at the beginning.
I call the tough ice, you can ask me to ice the sister.
It is good to ice the aunt, you seem not to really look like and ice the sister.
Then, the small soldier's foot has met with a calamity, very ruthless this time, the small soldier aches so that the face sprains a tangerine dried. The conclusion of the little soldier is, never go to offend women, the especially devilish woman who flew into a rage from shame.
I have given the young soldier a proud and superficial smile, turn round to leave. Hear small soldier shouting behind.
Evil baggage, will step on people to leave and step on to one on the foot all next time, without some human natures, justice is lost.
Serve you right!
See small soldier for the second time, it is the corruption that Bei Bei and I will go at a bar which is named the corner, by the way go to see whether the handsome boy can steep. Bei Bei always poses as nun of the helplessness. We two sprain the waist a scene of scene pictures that flowers blooming like a piece of brocade, are provoking numerous greedy sight.
Rare indulgence, usually, Bei Bei and I are the so-called white collar following the beaten track in the office building, that everybody show mercy, can also call beauty is kind to satisfied with our small Vanity, but must not expect we are fair maidens.
I say, Bei Bei, a fair maiden on your surface, a loose woman at heart.
Bei Bei laugh heartily, spray messy and heavy to drink quiver, fault, I one nun obviously in surface.
Bei Bei and I, two more and more unprincipled girls are tough and insincere in the mouth, but believe and thirst for the love at heart.
Bei's Bei sight is looked sidelong at arbitrarily everywhere, a hungry and thirsty form.
A dead girl of yours, don't stare at others, the very apt to be considered to be the tertiary industry one in this way. I say, do not forget to look up and down everywhere with my light either by oneself.
Bei Bei scold first of me, false, want to work as the prostitute, also want to set up the memorial archway.
I do not believe that can angle the tortoise son-in-law here.
Well, that, tortoise either left gather around right embrace or with house mileage money, where have this time blind bubble, it is bottle that that less than whom half bottle sway look forward to, can meet some little affair like some love of one night here at most.
Chapter eight Gray past event (5)
11:05 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter eight Gray past event (5) Then two people smile and roll, dilute the bottom of heart thinly and sentimentally. So dim sincerity.
My father comes back more and more hardworkingly, while coming back, begin to have smiles on the auntie's face, have more tender feeling in my father's eyes too. I think, in so many years, perhaps the auntie begins to fall in love with father, I know, my father must love her, otherwise, he will not choose to get married.
Sometimes, I will talk about my innermost thoughts and feelings to the auntie, talk about the long-haired pelt that Bei Bei and I like. Sometimes the auntie has no expression, sometimes see me laughing warmly. She begins drawing again, draws the golden woods, draw on blue day.
I am ill that there is once, at midnight, the auntie is giving me a piggyback to go to the hospital, sombre winter, having walked well far distance, she is still cold, do not have smile, her worry that but can find out, she is only a person who is not good at expressing.
And, I am hit by car, just some leather traumatism, the auntie learns news darts, rush into the ward very eagerly, see I am free, eyes have been turned into the cold hole. She only has too many worries, there is too much and lonely she.
I begin to hope the auntie is really my mother.
That is that one float in the early autumn of drizzle, one day in a season that I like, it is the life of holding wedding of the uncle too, the prodigal on uncle's love had one day getting into the frame of mind for work too at last, have handed over oneself to a woman with all one's heart.
That day, the auntie dressed up very beautifully, attacked black a bunch of height skirt and bright pink scarf.
My father says whether you can change a suit of clothes, don't wear black.
The auntie hangs the high eyebrow, want me to wear red?
There is a burst of faint the smell of gunpowder in the room.
We don't go.
Why? The wedding of your elder brother, how could we go?
The auntie is holding father's arms, enter superciliously, her neck is very long, look from side, there are beautiful and bright and clean arcs, is lining with the long tassel earrings, never look like the woman 40 years old. She has eyes beautiful like mothers, a wave is circulated. Her back is very straight, flicker and grow the appearance on foot. Yes, such a woman, certainly will vie for trying the trend of events best, though the bride is younger by ten many years olds than she.
Bride smiling happily at station by the uncle's body, the cheongsam of the red brocade, it is the simple beauty.
It see it is leisurely to auntie,uncle a little the distracted, then smile of job emerged, exchange a few words of greetings with father. And the auntie, look at uncles definitely, the uncle looks at and disappears. I have understood age of the emotion for the first time already, the complicated content in auntie's eyes, I have already guessed seven or eight fen, originally, this woman had loving the uncle deeply all the time. But slowly, having resumed being ice-cold in her eyes, it is ice-cold to the bone, have, perhaps, there is hatred.
This will bury very deep woman, will marry the loved man's younger brother by oneself, in loving the man's wedding newly, a rose bleeding stands. Father is looking at the auntie, has not spoken, just have her gently, he loves dearly and has pity for her. I begin, sympathize with she, begin, sympathize with father too, what kind of things is love on earth, torment so.
Because of wedding of uncle, grandmother has not raise difficult questions, look auntie in the eye never also, I did not know the whole story among them, just suddenly thought that felt sad. My father is between two women that love deeply, seven years in a dilemma. Among them, still lie across an enormous shade.
The auntie has drunk much wine, my father has drunk a lot too. Quietly, have one's own anxiety each, drink stuffy wine, in here being enormous to seem extremely lonely in being lively.
After going home, the auntie begins to shed tears, my father's red eyes involve in her the room rudely, I have never seen father is so, the beast as injured as the head. The sound of quarrelling over has spread in the room, then scream and wheeze.
I contract in the corner, begin to shiver, cry. They are all drunk, drunk.
I take out mother's photo, she is facing toward me and smile, I am facing toward her and cry.
Day resumed calm again, it seemed that the auntie suddenly changed a person, she began to care about us, she does the food that father likes eating, she buys the beautiful clothes for me, even begin to knit sweaters for us. A kind of happy feeling washes father and me to let faint within short time, so untrue. And all these, have happened truly again. Our true beginning life as general as whole family. Father does business with the uncle outside, the business is greater and greater, socialize between customer's government and bank every day, our life is more and more superior, my father often opens car-mountedly we go for a drive, my father fishes, I run on the meadow desperately, the auntie paints there silently, we are in her picture. My father is more and more reluctant to be away from home, so long as free, he will come back home. And I, always think such happiness is too untrue, I often smile at to wake up the dream, then nip oneself exerting all one's effort, am not I dreaming again?
Bei Bei was said, the ice is blue, a woman could change a family originally, and the family can really change a person's personality, you are much more optimistic.
Bei Bei say I begin to like you for your house, woman.
The day beautiful passes for two years like this, this is my most beautiful day in juvenile years, all of us do not know, contain the enormous murderous intention in day beautiful like this.
A project of theirs of my father is compelled to stop the horse, in addition, is in arrears with fund and chain debts, on capital turnover, he and uncle make a short-term loan on among the banks everywhere, will watch and will be forced in the blind alley soon, need 50 million, or the project is made an exception, possible to vitalize, but a bank is not willing no loan. On one hand the uncle begins to folk fund-raising with an unwarranted name, enterprises have been actually already in imminent danger that the ones that looked strong were taken care of, but taking care of in the other human eye is still a only fresh shelf. The uncle promises to pay the interest for the interest higher than the fivefold of bank, only people know inside information, this sum of money, in fact just stop up loophole in order to return the loan. On the other hand, they begin to work everywhere, hope to be specially pardonned, the uncle finds the person in charge, a big covert payment, it is really eternal famous saying that money makes the mare go, the project of the past half years for death gave the green light at last.
Chapter eight Gray past event (3)
11:05 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter eight Gray past event (3) When seven years old, I see an auntie, she has mother's equally very big eyes, nose and mouth are covered with the thick gauze mask, I thought mother had come back, I climb to her leg, go to pluck her gauze mask, she is a bit sorry, the face is red slightly. However, she is not mother.
My father says, the auntie is your mother later.
I have been calling her an auntie all the time, nobody can replace mother, I have been waiting, I believe mother will come back.
It is a person taking the bitter with the sweet that the ice is blue, she does not resist destiny.
I have not participated in my father's wedding, the grandmother has not participated in either. The grandmother does not like my new mother.
I think, my father falls in love with her, perhaps because she has the same eyes with mother.
In the evening, I have not gone home, hide in Bei Bei family. I hear father and new mother once and call me in the courtyard once, I say, Bei Bei, mustn't tell them I am at your home.
I think, mother of Bei Bei must go to our home, the yell has been stopped, if not, my father's throat is sure to call wearing. This is the wedding present that I gave to father, a wedding festivities night not very smooth.
I think I am retaliating, father will not love mother, my father does not love me either.
I sleep on the small spring bed by Bei Bei. In the evening, suddenly felt that there are cool things that have been rowed on the face, a pair of hands helped me to wipe off the tears on the face gently. I can not wake up really, I dream mother will not come back, even father has left, the head does not go back either, no matter how I shout, I have thought I have been abandoned by the world. Felt that a pair of hands are dabing my face, suddenly woke, a hand covered my mouth violently, it is the tears that I meet the eye on every side, frightened and perplexed.
Then, I see a pair of eyes, a boy's eyes are full of vigor, there is little hurry and confusion. He puts hands by one's own lip, tells me not to speak. My tears are still flowing ceaselessly, he helps me to wipe gently, all of a sudden I do not feel afraid, it seems to be in the dream.
The boy holds me in the arms, like holding a doll, he is wiping the tears of my canthus ceaselessly, kissing my forehead, is shaking gently, I slept dimly unexpectedly.
I think, I have really had a dream. While waking up, I have only Bei Bei at one's side.
Day passes the samely, the auntie is a woman 34 years old, do not get married.
My father is the engineer of the research institute, hold the meagre salary.
More and more non- healthy the grandmother is, because she is fed up about the auntie, does not come to family. She says, the auntie is originally the uncle's woman, why will my father pick up a one that only love wealth in this way tatteredly. I think, the auntie loves father, how can or he marry father without generous income.
The grandmother once met the auntie on the road, she spat one coldly, loose woman!
Auntie head very, go over, just as not heard supercilious.
A kind of sad and dreary feeling in my heart, is this my family? Ceaselessly dispute.
Oh yes, I have a relative, is a grandmother, my father has ever taken me to see her once, the grandmother's mind has been already a bit unclear, she is looking at us with the expression in one's eyes that hates, she does not like father at all times, hates him especially now, have I, this person who kills her only daughter. She is looking at me fiercely, says, you have killed my daughter, you have killed my daughter. I know, my birth regarded mother's life as cost originally, I begin to hate myself too, from that time, I am sensible and bearing patiently, unbending rapidly, from then on, no longer shed tears easily.
The auntie does not like me, I know this, but undoubtedly, she has reached a mother's duty to the limit, she cook, can always sweep hygiene, my father she when being out perfunctory my mess, however, she is bringing up me. She is a very cold woman, like cleanliness, non- talkative, always a lot of looks of worry, except take medicine, just stand by the windowsill looking far into the distance, or paint, I can not understand her picture, however, this is her life and life.
She likes cleanliness, forbids me to enter their bedroom, this is an only requirement to me. I can sit at the gate of the bedroom watching TV, but can't enter. Every day, when they out, will heavy to lock, blow lock of bedroom with one, and I, is just looking at that lock head silently, until being used to.
My father many, I pieces of little child of what too, this is a quiet family, so quiet that let people suffocate.
Have forgotten to tell you, I have already begun to learn to accept this second woman in father's life, I know, there is too much sacrifice that he made for me, I know too, he loves her.
She does not like me, I know this, but I begin to hope to understand her, sometimes, I think she is a mystery, once in a while, I will be attracted by this woman with general mystery too. Though, I often see too much resentment and hate in her eyes.
Having a period of time, she teaches my drawing, have only that period of time, her words are a little more, we get along a little more harmoniously, unexpectedly I have seen and made in her eyes warm. I like such a day, there is sunshine that is shed into silently under blue curtain.
Bei Bei is often come to play with me, she does not like the auntie, says she is too gloomy, looking like a fox or black cat, the auntie always wears the black clothes, the black hair worn in a bun or coil of fine silk fabrics, everyone leaves in the world that does not near her.
In that year summer of nine years old, it was exceptional and hot, and father came back from the outside, icing the soda of peak, that kind of sweet liquid of yellow orange orange is put in the small store by the street, the boss is shouting, ice the soda of peak, it is sweet and cool! I have swallowed a mouthful of saliva, the tone of studying the boss says, ice the soda of peak, it is sweet and cool! My father knows my trick, has seen the thing liked and never said, or stare at distractedly and distractedly, or the shout sound of studying the boss.
Chapter eight Gray past event (1)
11:04 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter eight Gray past event (1) On Pure Brightness of every year for the future, I will take three bunches of flowers to sweep a grave, one bunch is given to mother, one give grandmother, another bunch raise woman who I grew up for those.
We are all victims of the emotion, there is no right or wrong in this world.
That winter, very heavy snow floats outside the window, in the delivery room of the hospital, the hands that doctors are drawing the man do not allow leaving, producing a interest of cover cover of woman in bed, when I am given birth to, mother has already died, she has not found time to cast a look at me, very quiet in the delivery room, the snow outside window is very quiet too, I who have just fallen have not cried, mother has not cried either, peace and quiet of making people suffocate, my father collapsed in this scene of quietness, he thought he had lost two persons that kissed most, and I, have come back to life miraculously. I am less than 2.5 kilograms in weight when being born in, yes, I was an early newborn baby, and mother, there is congenital heart disease. She is for doing a bold attempt with the life to father's love, replace another father whose life loved me with a life. I have not seen my mother, but she gives me strong life and name beautiful: The ice is blue.
Like child that cry from little me even if piece, in during infancy, the adults once thought I was a child that became deaf, at that time, a boy baby speaking loudly in the delivery room, so long as he cried, all child will shake, respond like the heaven, only that is named the ice little blue girl, have never cried, has just opened pair this strange world of watching. The grandmother brings the drum-shaped rattle and shakes on her ear, she turns round to look, the grandmother loses the tears quickly, she tells doctor, this child can hear, can hear.
The ice is blue, it is blue to bring too many ice of the tears to family once borning.
The grandmother said, you are too young to cry in the childhood, very obedient and very obedient, if did not embrace you, others will not know the baby while having one infancy in the room.
Father worked in the farm at that time, took me at one's side, the grandmother will come to help to look after, another little girl sixteen seven years old who calls the lotus, my young nurse. She holds me every day, has that thick and thick pigtail only in the impression of childhood, the lotus points to the wall the picture of Tian An-men is said to me everyday, Tian An-men, Tian An-men, the dream of the lotus is to go to see Tian An-men, and I, the first word that will say is not mother, but the door. Lotus dash to shout to father at the door happily, mobile telephone brother, blue and sociable, I see the light flashing in father's eyes.
Have milk, my father lead, go back one milch goat, crowd fresh sheep's milk to me most every day, later on the grandmother says, blue, you eat the sheep's milk and grow up, since then, I will never eat the mutton.
Grandparents are persons most fond of me besides father, I often ask the grandmother, where is mother? She says, mother has gone to very far and very beautiful place, give and pluck the flower most beautiful bluely, give and make the clothes most beautiful bluely with the cloud, it is blue and sensible to wait for, mother will come back, I begin to expect oneself to grow up as soon as possible, speed up sensibly, begin to look forward to 18 years old, the adults all say, 18 years old sensible. I am not healthy, the grandfather gives me a piggyback to go to the health station to have an injection every day, the grandfather says, it is the bravest to be blue, I do not cry, grit one's teeth, the appearance not aching at all. I like the grandfather's shoulder. Until one early morning five years old, I will go to ask him to go standing up in front of the grandfather's bed, but the grandfather lies there not moving at all, can not really wake up. The grandfather has left, I have not cried, the grandmother says, the grandfather goes to see mother, he sends the clothes to mother, then lead mother to come back.
The first-class grandfather of stool that I sit outside the door every day comes back.
Then father returns to the city, I see lotuses crying in the corner quietly. The lotus is my mother before four years old, hold me and sing every day, pleasant folk song.
My father has been assigned to the research institute after returning to the city, hold the meagre salary and support me. I always ask him, dad, when does mother come back? My father is comforting my hair, is looking at me silently, quickly, quickly. What I do not know how to put in father's expression in one's eyes was sad.
The grandmother says to father, look for a piece of marriage suitable, the child needs mother too.
The grandmother says, that child of Chen Xi is good, is a university teacher, want the knowledge to have knowledge, want there is moral standing in moral standing, want the appearance to have appearances, does not dislike and avoid you, what do you hesitate yet?
My father is still hesitating.
I have seen that woman beautiful, she has appearance beautiful, she wears the long black windbreak, exquisite cheek, exquisite smile, she is holding my face, is looking at me warmly, separate very far distance.
I know, she will not be my mother. There is a kind of reaction between people and people, in 1/10 seconds when sight is connected.
My father did not marry that woman beautiful at last, though she was loving father deeply. She says father is a credible man, they once coexisted in room one, but nothing happens. Her friends say, perhaps he has physiological defect, she says "no ", he respects me, he is that one deserved the man all one's life of life, however, they did not get togather at last, because of me. She can accept me, but can't accept me and stay with them and live.
The grandmother says, I can look after blue.
I am looking at mother's photo, that woman like flower, pale brilliance.
I ask father, she is not mother, right? Will not mother come back? Right?
I say, dad, you don't be blue, yes?
My father holds me in the arms, I have seen his tears, blue, that year, I am only five years old, I say to oneself, later, I don't let father shed tears again.
My father has given up, he says, can't love me for generally loving the blue person, I can't be married.
It is impossible
11:04 PM, Wednesday, November 5, 2008
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Chapter seven Forget Yu JiangHu (3) Forgive my fragility, I am just afraid, the one that feared you to me is estranged, fear to have one day, we went to dead end at last, took care of and had no speech.
You would rather give me deeply, does not even want to commit suicide chronically. But I know, let you tell me so unique words, you could not do. Can talk about the words this step, it is difficult. Then, let me say.
If can get back to the past, that was better, would act as, has not met.
Some people, perhaps can only work as the friend, could have forever. Still remember a long time ago, I said we had better not meet, even met, it is only a friend too. However, all of us fail to accomplish.
As reason is up to reason. Have chance with even people cross long and arduous journey go to together too, some people efforts helpless too again.
Don't give one's own pressure, don't do any things for me.
Give me some time, let me learn to forget.
Then, if you would still like to listen to my dream.
All right, how long, how long can.
If have one day, the path winds along mountain ridges. If you still remember me, if I still love you.
I know, think or else lose among the crowds, can only be like this. There is no responsibility, will just have no pressure.
It is tall and erect that I have not told I see his wife.
Has opened a pet's shop through two streets, I often look, there, come to like one small gold maos of Germany dog at one glance, contract at edge of the cage, pitifully sad. Touch gently through the cage, still draw back the looks hurt and wrongedly with one's head low. Little child this, like me of heart very much, see, experience heart pain right away.
Accepted theory Xiao, little child this, watch very sad, you two can bring happiness to each other together perhaps.
I say Cheng Xiao, do leave, if may double, I afford another soul, extra life, fault fault, you must accumulate virtue for me.
No longer have a pressure, seem to talk and stand up easily, although what are separated, but were heart, people, and between the people, forever so, outside first distance, can feel intimate instead, surmount the distance, will go, resist and drift apart unconsciously, general everybody is a lonely castle, hope someone appreciates, but fear that is captured, outside one distance, can feel safe only.
It is a woman who lacks sense of safety that the ice is blue, so she would rather let the castle go out of cultivation.
I want to have a child very much, one belongs to tall and erect with my childly, perhaps it is not because of the love, just, our soul is so close, our child will be the cleverest child beautiful in the world.
Know my attention tall and erectly.
I like girls, like boys tall and erectly.
He says, so clever a woman, it is not good to destine destiny.
The heart gave birth to sad and drearily, how born unlucky the beauty in this world is, even clever woman did not miss unexpectedly.
You believe Zhuo He I with place one room, he kiss eyes of me, my forehead perhaps, my lip, he embraces me, I often go to sleep in his chest, however, never infringe. His portrait has pity on and has pity on me childishly. Let me assert, this is a man who is worth entrusting.
I ask on MSN tall and erectly, have you ever loved me?
Half on the day, say tall and erectly, you only enter into my person in the heart of hearts.
All the time all been.
If I can't live with you, then this is understood, but because understand. Because a others' one, one's own true agony at the same time, because of being true painful
I understand you, just as understand myself, the more as soon as I leave oneself far, I slip into oneself deeply. Sometimes I feel alive except one's own body, so, I am by you whenever and wherever possible. Use Thai Gore's a word, hope I will not cause and bear your love, because I choose, love you, want love by unrestrained since. While striking and making this sentence, heart is painful but enjoyable truly.
Have given me a smiling face tall and erectly.
We are inclusive each other. With what?
Use wings.
Advocating the people with free soul will all have a love of banishing soul, but not persons who agree with that everybody will meet soul. Life is originally a lonely contention, so, as you know one is packed with own and the same soul in the magnetic field around brimmingly, it is in fact a kind of happiness.
It is raining, hope to go out through the glass, the world is shedding tears. And I, except soul, are still wishing eagerly something. Yes, I do not need the mirage, lack the love of the soul of the sexual love like watching the world through the glass forever, even unable to take the true thoughts and feelings to remember, the blending from soul to body is the complete blending.
I say, tall and erect, please come to see me, does not have other meaning, we, just have a chat.
Only I know, I have other meaning, I want to be tall and erect, then disappear completely, I want to let him remember me forever in such cruel way.
The ice is blue, don't think you those is love, you are recalcitrant, Bei Bei is said, whom you really love is small soldiers.
Yes? Am I recalcitrant? Do I only love the small soldier? Then, to what kind of emotion it will be I?
Conquer, you hope to conquer an outstanding man.
I turn round with a graceful posture, even if conquer, want efficiently.
The ice is blue, in fact the man will train by time, if the small soldier comes back, are you willing to give the chance to him once again? Bei Bei is asked me.
It is impossible. I answer desperately.
Is your present mood right
9:54 PM, Monday, September 22, 2008
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Is your present mood right One's
So the mood to be seen one is really good, must set out from influencing several key elements of the mood, so long as one of them that did not have in these key elements in the heart or it is several, then prove the present mood is good. If it is even several to have one of them, then prove the mood is not good, even very bad one.
People's thought is generally arranged by two kinds of factors, one is rational factor, only reason, and another kind is the unrational factor, only emotional factor. Because of emotional factor of these, let mood of someone sometimes good and sometimes broken just too, can't be steady. Then which are these unrational factors? Can be divided into the following aspects according to researching and analysing:
Envy at first.
It is a kind of a kind of unrational factor with sizable danger strength to envy, so long as people are full of envying in the heart, will make people full of evil intention, even injure others' desire in the heart, so this person just lived in the dark corner from then on, can't swing broad and levelly regardless of conducting oneself or doing things, can't be open and aboveboard. Even speak, will make and try to cover up. Do not go forward to congratulate in the face of others' success or advantage, but demonstrate a pair of appearances hated. Gnash one's teeth, it is itching to let that person disappear in one's own eyes at once, the sooner the better.
The mood of person with this kind of psychology will not have anything happy at all, but full of hating all the time, staring at others' success or advantage fixedly all the time. They put, at improving human performance, consume until how deal with than oneself people terribly valuable time time.
What this kind of people often injured at first is oneself instead of others, at the same time, only as time goes by, the state of mind of people can take place very loud change too, make passivism low-spirited by the original positive striving, full of hatred. At this time, can also speak in this kind of people's heart happily?
If you want to know whether oneself is really happy, then have to search one's heart, whether we will harbour envying to others' success, even have desire to destroy. If any, the psychology that must be own in adjustment well, is good at regarding others as oneself, regard oneself as others.
Secondly angry.
It is the most unwelcome one in human emotion enemy to be angry. It make people lose ability that reason think often, make people in a lot of important occasion serious damage individual dignity and image often too.
If say you are a manager of a customer department, when you face a lot of customers, can't well control one's own mood, random outburst own anger, then the consequence can't be imagined. This just means you will pay the high cost after the thing is crossed - -You will lose a group of customers, even your customer group, by the time, you will understand what will be named " It is not replied that the hero goes Return to " ;
If you are an ordinary enterprise employee, you that the mood is irritable vent in front of others on your mood randomly, even does not disappear in front of the boss a bit either, then what will the consequence that you do it in this way be? Perhaps it is your image that is damaged in leading the eyes, perhaps it is others that begin the cooperative production doubt to you, it is that you would not have any friend from then on to be serious even more.
So ever someone has said: "It is a trap to be angry, often let us sink into it. But who knew again, this trap was being excavated by oneself frequently " .
In this case, it is a formidable enemy of the human mood to be angry, if think of real happiness, must drive away it from our life.
The third is depressed.
Kafka has described his depressed experience like this: "Enclosing two soldiers around I, hands hold pikes. A soldier inside is towards me, the lance depends on me sharp; A soldier outside is outside, the lance points to outside sharp. They are so enclosing me airtightly, make me unable to go out, the person outside can not come in either " .
Though it is unhappy that depressed and other mood can both bring a lot to people's life, but it again and other mood have loud difference very. Other mood training and life skill incorrect at most, but depressed to involve psychology or even issue of individual character, can not be solved easily.
Ever someone has said: "If other passivism mood are obstacles succeeding on the road, make the avenue to success long and hard and dangerous, then, depressed to succeed to try to go south by driving the chariot north Luis at all " . It is really a kind of question letting the person have a headache very much to seem depressed. If one wants to court the successful person wholeheartedly depressed, then basically pronounce this person's " death penalty " . Because even there are many chances to succeed, this kind of people will release one by one. One such state, can one's mood turn better?
So want to get rid of the depressed constraint, must change one's own outlook on life and values at first, change oneself to some stereotypes of thing, put the eyes a bit farther. Be good at seeing the side with good things, you had better go out of the inner circle of people of one's own life, your mental state of change letting beautiful world outside come slowly.
The fourth is tense.
Get two kinds of situations, appropriate tense and excessive intension scores intensely.
All of us know a appropriate one tense to be needed, because it can make whom us gather work, it is unlikely to divert attention. Just think if one is not nervous at all to one's own work, think every day when to do when to do, think how do how make, then is there a good result? But however, the excessive intension is inadvisable, not merely let our long-term preparation be irrevocably lost, still let our original imagination and planning forgotten thoroughly. In addition, the excessive intension will make oneself in a very tired condition too, even let people feel inmature and funny. Usually the behavior of a person's overstrain is that the face turns white, both hands and lip tremble endlessly, head will in spite of having cold sweat, it is rapid to breathe, the language is incoherent, the serious one is still the phenomenon with palpitation.
Certainly there are a lot of tense reasons, for example to lack experience or that a scene is strange. Even if is a already successful person, will be nervous in a lot of scenes, only this kind of people can control one's own one tensely.
Mood
They two face each other far away
4:03 AM, Thursday, August 28, 2008
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They two face each other far away, have not spoken I wonder anything, Handbag Manufacturer| Leather Handbag| Leather Handbag Manufacturer forest as if word stand up, plan, leave, bar for mid-night only there are two people left, that man that met on she and white
overline bridge, atmosphere Yin Yun. Just at this moment, she find article Luo even stand up and leave, disappear among the dim light of night in
the twinkling of an eye.
She stand into bar definitely, heart have some, lose, I wonder oneself how are these. She is upset to go out of the bar, but there was a feeling of
one kind of heartbeats suddenly, he was just nearby, he has not gone away! Her innate reaction.
Lift the head suddenly, he, just in front of her. There are same tacit understanding and fatigue through the whole journey in their eyes, this has
murdered mutual reason, night is too quiet, only their rapid breath sound at this moment. My God, let them embrace. Just at the time of that,
warm High pressure pumps| Mud pumps| Piston Pumps| Reciprocating Pump| Metering Pumps| Water Injection Pumps embrace thousands and thousands of words, there is no vulgar course, not needing course, the tacit understanding can replace the course.
In following week, their footprint is stepped on every corner of the ancient city of phoenix. Every little detail is so right, they are afraid of
wasting the illusion of this kind of mood, except destiny, it is unable to treat this to crazy men and women through the way that other methods
again But they have to leave, they have it in the life of the distant place, the person two sixteen seven years old will not be excited for the
emotion that can't be touched again, it is ambiguous that they have left only the lonely men and women through the whole journey knew how.
I am sighing, Fashion Handbag Manufacturer| Pet Carrier Leather handbagsI hope the story is over at this point, because there is no such love in reality, not so good as, let them keep the memory between
us the day when not forgetting of that one.
But they have come back, the women or women 26 years old. Can't give up that care hovering of deepest place of bottom of heart. Forest as if
word comes into those antique hotel of the phoenix, she is turning on a room of door, the door can not be opened. "I'm coming! " Article Luo
stand behind her. Oh, as if he has reaction, they have actually had reaction all the time, have just never met. "I know you return Will come again
" ," I know what you know " . Look, what tacit understanding, we in reality don't look for this kind of tacit understanding, too chilly and gaudy
emotion will only be too variable.
Let them embrace, they are too similar persons, do not need too much course during that time. Think heart of you, one hundred ext. a
thousand, need one speech to be term at this moment, he want speak clear all in she, he is all clear too why she come again. It is the eternity in a
moment. It turns round to be as high as the hills and as long as the rivers, the great distance of the ends of the earth, they are afraid Beijing and
Jakarta, what through what the mountain is calculated through the sea, nothing can prevent their soul from being exchanged, so she decides to
go to Indonesia with him.
I feel sad at once in the heart, forest as if word destine, stay there while being impossible, so-called love of happy reunion like ink wear down in
time always, logistics company| Overseas Removal| Moving company fade from memory The ultimate attainment which loves a person is to separate, deep and eternal scar is here in the heart, that
eternal emotion is here in the heart. In the blue sea, the human society end, it is not so good as cherishing the memory of meeting each other
sometimes.
And article with world of word does not have only two people, have plucked instrument Na, that piece in unrequited love with Indonesia
young girl of Chinese origin of article Luo. She has waited for him for 7 years. The person that has not gone through will never understand that
kind of one that is in unrequited love with is bitter, will not understand that kind of reticent one is lonely. Yes, I love you, have nothing to do with
you. How detached, in fact this kind is lonely can only be with what has been freed detachedly. Plucked instrument Na magnificent to smile, how
is she behind being magnificent difficult speech explain scar. "I like you, I like you. " She can only express it from my comfort with this kind of way
to talk to oneself. This scar, the article is known, ones that communicate with his soul as if the word can be known.
The love really has exclusiveness alone, but my very cruel their love of rejoice has not fallen into this kind of convention. What a simple thing in
love, an expression in one's eyes can be solved, but want together Beijing, as if word determine, go back handle well everything then may be
eternal leave this stretch of land. Jakarta, there have, make she deep evil spirit puzzled people. Beijing have, let at this moment as if reason that
word can not can go back - -Robbed or burgled in the family, the works that her innumerable trials and tribulations finished are out. Literature is
a part of her life. There is forest of heart disease as if words, has gone into a coma, a long time lying in bed, amyotrophy temporarily of her leg. It
was Gu MingXi that looked after her at one's side, her classmates of high school, have been admiring the person of her all the time Everything,
forest as if word go back again. As have, sit forest as if word at wheelchair push away, go out, relieve boredom and have, put down, plan want
mail that send out, bright sunlight temporarily, what she put down is not merely a mail.
Article Moving services| Worldwide Relocation| Freight Logistic Services| Ocean Transportation wait for in remote Jakarta still arrival of word, it is further more reticent for him to become. As if the telephone of the word has already
shut down because of owing the fee, each mail that he sent out, there is not a echo. He will go to the airport by car if having time so long as his
subject is finished, hope that there are pleasantly surprised appearances. One month, one year, two year, from hope to disappointed, to desperate
and then from disappointment
The article thought, he would live for all one's life like this, is accompanied by mathematics the same as before. He pretends nothing and
happens in front of plucked instrument Na, did not know her idea either, day by day "I love you. " When accompanying tears that the young
girl is in unrequited love with to melt unreally out to cry this, a decision that the article has been made.
After the three year, under bright sunlight treatment that concentrate one's attention on, as if word recover finally. Unless it go through
together they the far too many, unless the sad, the joyous,from,shut, exquisiteness relative they, perhaps they walked together at time. As if the
word suggests taking a trip to Indonesian, some hearts should untie when being formed.
Having reached the International airport of Jakarta at last, the clear environment let her feel all sorts of feelings well up on cloud light day, I
wonder all these with the same three years ago still? As if suddenly presented the huge rose festooned vehicle in front of the word, she is looking
at the bright sunlight in surprise. The bright sunlight is not a businessman who only understands the interests, he smiles and says chanting: "These
10001 roses, because you are that ten thousand li choose one forever in my mind. " He embrace and kiss forest as if word in airport, fall on knees
and propose. The whole airport seethes with excitement, a lot of women scream. In a moment, the thinking of ten thousand times walked back
and forth Buddha has solidified, the heart is as wet as eye socket, she wonders she should come here. Someone lifts camera and takes a picture
for this moment. Bright sunlight ask the foreign country man could sell photo him courteous subsequently, foreigners smile generously: " a gift
for your wedding by the God!"
On days three of Jakarta, washed photo send to them, one face shouting pain as if eyes of the word that seem to have met before. That person
who she wants to forget completely, that is regarded as person who the heart formed by her. Shouting pain at heart tells her, she did not forget
that person at all times, has been staying on her bottom of heart originally, that is, silk gauze article. The face of the article has not been facing
toward scenes, what is he seeing? Taken care of the bright sunlight oneself embracing and kissing
The article Leather Handbag |Pet Carrier| Leather handbags Air Freight Forwarder| Office Relocation said to oneself for last time the airport that day, gave one's own heart a explaination.
As if the word thinks oneself getting crazy, he still remembers though the memory that only has one week only between them, but touching all
one's life of picture, the person that remembered together in two only one weeks, there is so the same surprising and persistent and tacit
understanding to arrive dimly discernibly on the false emotion in the view of this your and my other people, then what reasons do they have to
give up? All sorts of reasons looked for in the heart because bright sunlight is attentive have collapsed completely in a moment, she looks like the
bright Office design Interior design sunlight honestly speaking incoherently, then gone to Chinatown, has found it one's obigation to walk forward and not to turn back, have
given up the route of retreat.
Article Luo house Jakarta local distinguished family of Chinese, can find while being easy very.
But what does she want to do? She, does not know either, perhaps want to let the story have an intact final result. Most women are always
persistent in the love, the persistent one even give up the love, should look for a reason to see that tear the final result of the strong lung of heart,
place the eternal regret in heart, accompany oneself to spend remaining years
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Summer prevent taking off and making up the small key
3:44 AM, Friday, June 20, 2008
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Summer prevent taking off and making up the small key £¨Directory£©It has got hot gradually, Beaded Braceletsin summer when has made your glamour, the season aptest to go wrong of dressing too! Sweat, produce oil, shine suddenly and violently All these will make your whole model index reduce and divide, if the puzzlement encountering flowers and making up again, will undoubtedly let your mood lose the minimum! How could let dressing beautiful fashion for summer, have trouble made up to take off also?
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Prevent, take off, make up, break up difficult point of making up
On the summer very it is the easy it sweat produce oil,so at key step the most most too in not making up in foundation cream. You can fix with the honeyed powder first, use and accuse of skin cream of the oil and foundation cream. If your complexion is not even, can push the foundation cream away slowly with the foundation cream, put around the lip of eyes especially, Wholesale Picture Frames press the foundation cream lightly with the finger, push away evenly, can make the skin exquisitely more carved. If oil field severely afflicated area skin, must with suck paper glossy to exhaust the oil refine the make-up.
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Enjoy life
11:37 PM, Thursday, May 22, 2008
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Enjoy life Forget Plastic zipper eyes want wait, tree Piao come back finally, bring personal second special edition of creating four year not wearing. Special edition list
just, wheat field music join Warner Company obtain economy strong media crusade support, more on book, have a tidal wave of favorable
comment, it is rather strong too that the market reacts, sell 300,000 furiously in one week. Though I hope, cause tree Piao of sympathetic
response can be accepted by more people once, as hear " ColorfulDays " hang, at many mouth, can't help doubt as A Du's love song, is it still a
Piao tree that Piao set up?
At poster at the gate of record shop see Piao tree watery expression in one's eyes, I no longer suspect. See eye this, tree Piao still tree Piao.
New special edition have whom " those flowers " recall with deep feeling time passes swiftly like flowing water yet. Yes, Piao has set up 30 years
old, who can require one man of thirty years of age that should responsible for getting up more continue, cherish like one without boy of thing
melancholy for adolescence resist with the attitude of refusing Are some ripe?
Then tree Piao represent one sad with Apparel Accessories contradiction of " live " on " flower those " in " whether fool sad", and more optimistic, more optimistic life
attitude. Wishing eagerly to experience, it is true to accept, it already comes, has taken things safely. "it grow if Xia Hua " last one kind growing,
boundless and deep, beauty of maturity not hold back inside originally. Stated in just as Thai Gore " the gardener collects ": Enable and grow the
splendour like Xia Hua, it is quiet and beautiful that leaf like autumn dies. Speak beautifully then, the life is like the song.
Will it be February 16 2004, Shu Pu act as a guest chat on Sina Web. He says frankly, oneself intelligence is late-maturing, been pursuing the
freedom of soul. Though does not like amusement to add the thing given not including oneself too much music, repel too ever, already do singer
means of support of regarding as, too hope try in making by person who produce at each at material in the face of,make oneself calm in order to
attitude that play with. Present oneself, will consider the interests of the company, the painstaking the same question of answer more, go on tour
and propagate everywhere, because this is one's own work. But when the net friend's question touches his heart essence, he hedges, avoidance.
But there are comments behind " The sad thing lets me have desire of creating even more " .
Some day, I see tree Piao bring obvious tired attitude appear, close to helplessness that appear in eyes howl song gone round and begun again to
sing, that shout oneself hoarse at one song fan's party, think he perhaps has this to sigh with deep feeling: It is worried Metal zipper that the person who
knows I calls my heart, what person who doesn't I wonder I calls me to ask.
Music reviewer Anhui Li say tree Piao that he know just so pure sing " lost sea for a long time ", 1997, but among 1999 first pieces of special
edition that tree produce Piao, record " lose ", tree Piao at that time pick up forever during time for a long time. Really, present the Piao tree is no
longer that teenager who has been just leaving university, hoping white clothing floats, persons who produce when and it is sweet to become
glad life of enjoying; Can mindful of fame and gain singer that sing to one's heart's content originally no longer, become book music earn a
living, hand in to the joyous singer with commercial operation fish and water. But those reprimand tree Piao no longer pure people already, who
can be happy to lead a simple virtuous life, refuse to insist on Pullers ascetic practices in life that should be bright and colorful?
Pu Shu, still true at least!
The safe fist sweeps the leg (chapter 3)
8:46 PM, Tuesday, May 6, 2008
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The safe fist sweeps the leg (chapter 3)
The leg position is the mp4 speakers main thumping the weapon of safe fist, almost all the Thai boxing champions have shocking sweeping the leg and kicking one's legs of might. Former Peter, champion of K-1, A now right sweep leg strength up to 1900 pounds. While wrapping the technology of tying KO rival tight inferiorly and counting, 80% depend on the leg position. In the dual meet that Japan - Thailand grappled in 2004, the Thai boxer depended on all leg position KO rivals of fierce Meng. The Thai boxer fierce Meng's leg position even enables rivals while defending extremely carefully, Thai fist grapple circle spread a word " if you think saving own arm from damage like this, you had better not block the sweeping and playing of safe fist hard " . The previous boxing champion of Mexican middleweight handkerchief fluffy special both arms fracture when dose of blocking Thai boxing champion is swept and played of Gonzalez. The consequence of the head hit by the leg position is more serious. 2004, Thai fist circle take place 7 hit unfortunate incident that die without treatment under head heavy leg at least. Reputable Thai fist referee bar bright to guide tile say Bhumipol have: "Whenever one party is hit the head with the leg position by the rival, I will have a feeling finished soon in a kind of match, because he will most likely fall on the ground and can not climb up at once. "
Thai boxer pay attention to leg position whom effect train most typical to illustrate, play serious sand bag certainly. Do not use Zhyuan of the fine
The safe fist is trained
Effect achievement safe fist
When the Thai boxing champion takes an exam of good Les in the west to the Panamanian match, sweep playing and shooting local boxing champion Rob and Culber dead on the spot with a powerful one, the terrified extremely TV announcer asked: "This is hit to play so terrible why? " The Thai fist technical adviser of the scene iPhone Skin sighs with deep feeling question and answer is said: "Effect achievement safe fist. " Though the organizer of modern safe fist match takes every care to protect the boxer's security, take various measures to avoid the similar misfortune, but " effect achievement safe fist " But has become the classical famous saying which announces the safe fist secret.
The safe fist does not actually have unique technology. The common movements, having of the safe fist " The technology of first killer in world " Title sweep last technology where skill own in common; Known as " The secret quintessence of Thai fist " Knee law technology,it is at Chinese grapple Wushu, savate and Brazils French there aren't skill. The safe fist does not have highly difficult leg position in tae kwon do, there is no Chinese Gonfu China's beautiful footwork, various technology such as its fist, leg, knee, elbow are nearly all the simplest movement.
Though Thai fist technology is simple, the requirements for every strength hit and skilled intensity of application of different technology obviously exceed other grapple skills. Thai boxing champion sand agate in and in weight than oneself 90 pounds (1 pound =0.4536 kilograms) Play fist Wang Fei " Step the rank " In inferior position in different fields such as the height weight,etc. in the match. But the sand agate still uses first one hand and then the other in quick succession, is thumping rivals with the leg position, knee law constantly, at last rival in place KO. The sand agate is praised as because of excellent behavior in this match " The steel soldier " . To grapple circle personage seem, Thai boxer to grapple robot just, though only design the simple procedure, but can thump untiringly.
Southeast Asians are one of the shortest and smallest ethnic groups of the average stature in the world, the typical Thai boxer is always that the height is medium-sized or partial and short, skinny and durable, the rival facing it is often taller and bigger, much stronger than they. Fluffy Donat of say coach of fists Thai of name tower: "We always want and the rival stronger than we grapple, so thump the key becoming win and defeat. If we can't give play to already strength to the maximum extent, we fail definitely. "
" give play to one's own strength to the Memory Card maximum extent " ,This is the motto that the Thai fist effect trained.
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